Blog 1 | 2025 | Confession Series

My Confession: When Insecurities Mellow Me Down!

Does in any way, the title makes you think that this blog is going to talk about the insecurities I have been dealing with? Well I do go through insecurities in life. But I have always made sure to channelise this unwanted energy in a constructive manner. And mind you- successfully!

There have been so many situations where confidence has taken a back seat for me. 

The idea of ‘I know it all’ has never been the forte of my culture. 

But I have had multiple experiences where people have realised that I am Better- Better enough to surpass their LEGACIES. Better enough to what they thought I was. Eventually leading to an insecure aura that is so easy to sense. The aggression that is the outcome of these insecurities have made me uncomfortable all the time. 

How do I deal with them?

My way to deal with THEIR insecurities has been a little controversial. Yus, I am somebody who is a disastrous fighter. 

What do I do? I withdraw! I mellow down! I pretend that you know it all- I don’t! Has it helped me to grow? Maybe not to a desirable extent in terms of MohMaya. But it has helped me sustain my peace. It has helped me to move on with dignity. It has helped me to live a better life. It has helped me to realise that THEIR validation will not decide my calibre.

Do I hold grudges for them and their insecurities?

No! Because I have understood that my limelight will not go anywhere- no matter how hard anybody tries to subside it. I am bound to receive – what I deserve. However, such experiences have made me more humble and forgiving. 

And remember! It is easy to observe someone and decide how to behave and conduct yourself. But difficult to observe people and decide- this is what you would NEVER want to do. And I think I have mastered the difficult.